back to my life!
I know it's as boring as it sounds...
but what the heck... it's my life dude!
let's keep it short and simple... so that readers won't be effin boring reading this shyt~
ok so... everybody knows I'm in LOVE with classmate Esther V of 4 Amanah. I can't help thinking about her all the time... during training, during class, at home and at almost everywhere!
However... it seems like I don't have a place in her heart and although it hurts me, we humans have to accept facts right?
the reason why I say this is because she told me once before that she never think of me as more than friends and her heart is currently with somebody else... or forever with somebody else. sometimes I'd wish I can deny everything that she say to me but.. that would be like forcing her to like me and I really don't want that to happen... coz that's just not me.
currently we're best friends.. and I think Esther's comfortable with that. Honestly, I'm not comfortable with the current relationship because it's not going anywhere! it's almost like the movie "Just Friends" except that I'm not fat of course. I really hate the part where after you reach the "best friend" level, the girl seemed to be not flexible with you.. it's like a virus that is freaking hard to break through!
but still... what's important is what Esther feels... every guy's principle is he must respect the girl that they love. so, although I feel pain inside, as long as I respect Esther's decision to keep our relationship as friends, I'm ok with that.. because what I feel is of no importance.. even if it means killing me, I want to see Esther happy all the time... her smile is really sweet. haha..
at least this is how I can show my love to Esther..
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