Chapter 24: Heroes and Heroines (Wira Wirawati)

gosh...

I nearly forgot...

I'M LEAVING TOMORROW!!!

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

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o... okay...

hey guys.. it's me once again with the continuation of the "Chapter" series. right now it's Chapter 24 and.. it's the 1st chapter of my life in 2011...

BUT, 1st of all, I know I was a dick by not wishing you guys and girls this but...

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!

but seriously... don't you people want to know where was I during the past few days that I've been AFK-ing??

well.. not much...

I was just packing up.. you know.. the usual stuff... for school...

you know what, I should just cut the sarcrapsm...

okay, I was just packing up for the national service, which will start live nationally by next week and I'm leaving home by tomorrow.

I'm kinda excited because..

instead of being a potato at home playing video games, watch tv and sleeping, I will be getting a whole new experience.. an experience like.. the song "A Whole New World" from "Aladdin"! I'll get a new fantastic point of view~ no one could tell me no.. or where to go~!

wait a minute... I'm blogging the lyrics already...

ANYWAYS...

so yeah.. I'm gonna have a whole new experience.. I'm kinda looking forward to the M16 training... it's going to be the 1st time that I'll be handling a rifle. well, I always thought that I should start with a handgun instead of a rifle but... hey... who cares.. I'll be carrying guns..

YEAH~!

and yes.. I'm really glad that I'm chosen for this programme... I mean... out of the millions of ex form 5 all over Malaysia, I got picked.

erm.. the song.. "Wira Wirawati"..

honestly.. I've never heard the song.. I've never even try to memorise and sing the song. hahaha.. sorry... xD

it's not like I'm not being patriotic but I think I would love the song... but I'll try not to listen to it now. I'll save it until the day I leave this town because... well... the title says so.

from my perspective.. only Heroes and Heroines are able to sing this song!

YEAH~!

not only life there would be fun.. it'll be like PRISON.

though I don't know how prison is like but... you know... 6 days in camp.. 1 day out to church.. then I can't go anywhere else but to follow back the bus to camp and then visiting time. one thing I don't like about this is.. I have to wear my uniform for every time I leave the camp to do outdoor activities (none physical activities). that's like.. a PRISONER on PAROL or.. like those dudes who collects trash on the sidewalks using sticks while being supervised by officers.

Imagine me in PLKN uniform doing outdoor activities like these

I'm not a prisoner okay..? I'm doing the country a favour.. I mean.. I even let you people touch my hair.. and shave it..

but guess what.. once I'm out.. you can't touch it no more.. coz I'mma go JOHNNY BRAVO!

that's right... that's Johnny Bravo alright

okay.. that's too much.. I'm just ranting on small stuffs... you know me :D

well.. all I know is, it ain't going to be like school no more. I just saw my younger cousins going to school today and memories of my days at school are all coming back to me once more... it makes me feel like... this isn't right! but hey... I'm too old for middle school... it's time to go high.. on ecstasy...

...... high education I mean.....

everybody is moving on... but to those who still wants to stay... be my guest. just make sure Mama Yong doesn't catch you and shave you down.

before I end this sarcraptic blog...

I just want you guys to know that...

I found out that my parents would want to enrol me into college sooner. and to those who has read my blog in Chapter 22.. I guess I'm heading much more to the 2nd scenario.

this also means that.. I have to put my dreams on hold once more. I need more time to study though I think my old habits of procrastinating my works is still with me... hahaha.. I hope it goes away... please...

wait...

any update of me and my girlfriend???

well yeah... I'm glad we're still going strong. ever since I finished middle school, we only get to meet once on the 28th of December. I enjoyed every second of it... though we had a small "argument" at the end of the day. but anyways, since now it's going to be a distant relationship, we decided that we should go for it and see what happens. I'm not saying anything will be for sure but I just want to try and work this out for now.

what did we share together???

erm.. you know what... forget that...

it's only for her and I okay... hahaha! I'm just kiddin guys...
BUT SERIOUSLY...

till the next post guys! in 3 months of course! I LOVE YOU ALL though I know there ain't much readers reading my sarcraptic blog...

Zackie out~

by the way, sarcrapsm means sarcastic + crap.. it's a new word by me..

YEAH~!

My Randomness!! Ep. 13: It's Christmas??!!

hey guys!

guess what?

it's Christmas Eve!

guess what?

I'm so hyped up!

guess what?

I see Christmas trees everywhere!

guess what?

guess again...

=_=....***********

anyway..

it's Christmas Eve! well, I've said that already. anyway~ here I am again, sitting in the living room blogging on Blogger at this time of the day. it's now 8.11pm and there's about 3 hours and 49 mins to Christmas! whoohoo~!!

I know you guys are wondering..

what the **** am I doing at home?? on Christmas Eve?? BLOGGING??

okay.. let me break it to you guys...

basically.. I'm not having any Christmas celebration. not this year. I know.. it's sad but I have to face it.. everybody else in my family are very.. VERY busy at the moment. my family members actually got a plan to make a Christmas family dinner, not on Christmas Eve but on Christmas day at night...

SADLY..

due to some personal classified reasons...

IT DIDN'T HAPPEN

so here I am! just sitting here and blogging about my 2010 Christmas experience! :D
erm... am I suppose to be happy about it? well, for me, it's the 1st time this happens but never mind...
what's important is I'm looking forward to my national service which I will leave this town on the 4th of January 2011. at first, I am so.. so.. very panic about it because... I thought that the program will immediately start right after I check in. but no, I have one week freedom and orientation in the camp.. which is in Tanaki, Tambunan. good news for me, I'll be joining the program along side classmate, buddy, and best friend, Kelvin Kong! hey Kelvin, I hope you're reading this... I'm just... promoting you

ANYWAYS...

I hope this program doesn't suck like previous years.. I mean, look at the 1st ever national service program back then.. they don't have ENOUGH activities and ENOUGH facilities..

it wouldn't be a problem if it only last for a month... or a week... that'll be enough...

BUT 3 MONTHS???????

are you kidding me????

well, at least now the facilities and activities are in mere completion and from that, I might actually enjoy it.. literally..

moving on... saw my new profile pic in my facebook page? my intention of putting that on is so that you guys can enjoy a last look at my nice, cool, and kinda good-looking image of myself...

my current look

coz after this.. there'll be no more nice.. cool... and kinda good-looking image of myself. I'll be looking much fiercer! I'll be JOHN CENA!

.......

look.. I was just kidding..

the thing I actually wanted from this program is the fitness.. I want to get really fit.. you know.. so I could last.. on any battlefield.. now.. I couldn't last in a dog-fight in a Call of Duty game... *sighs*

and.. I need the muscles.. I know some of you guys want me to gain some fats and muscles on my body so I would look less.. "drug pusher" like and more like Jacob of the Twilight series.. guess what.. I prefer the Taeyang body..!

Taeyang

yeah~! I should be like him.. I mean.. he's asian.. I'M ASIAN. I should have the ASIAN MUSCLES.. not a... fictional novel werewolf body sh*t..

sorry Jacob fans...

well, yeah so now.. I'm kinda skinny.. and though I'm actually weighing at 59kgs (it's true), I need to look at least good and healthy looking. I'm only afraid that I'll get skinnier... like my bro about 2 years ago.. he went to the same national service, 3 months later he came back looking much scarier than looking at Michael Jackson before he dies...

yeah.. I think that's pretty much like it..

oh yeah..

my bro.. Abraham.. he's coming back on Christmas. yes and I mean at 12 midnight.. tomorrow! I ain't going to sleep now because I already slept 3 hours straight just now in the afternoon.

man.. I miss him..

by the way.. if anybody's asking what's he doing now.. here's some things you guys should know..

1) he's currently studying at a well known university
2) he's going to be 20 next year.. an adult!
3) he's doing a whole lot well in his studies compared to in SMSM.. and he's taking biology, physics, and chemistry!!
4) he's still single xD
5) he's still kinda the same old Abraham we know.. I know
6) and.. he's my older brother... yeah....

now that's all done about my bro.. here's what's what about me!

erm... I think you don't need to know... coz you DO already know... that I'm asian...

ANYWAYS...

I was thinking.. about.. you know.. making my first VLOG. YES, a VIDEO LOG.. on YouTube! I've been inspired by the likes of Nigahiga and Kevjumba.. I mean, they're great dudes with all their funny videos that can make anybody's day. but for me to make my own video, I need a cam.. I don't have a cam so I've to hold on for the moment. I think I'll start my 1st vlog.. right after national service..

I've already had some ideas on my vlogs.. it's going to be countless vids on my very own blog-made "My Randomness!!" episodes..

it's just a plan... okay... I really hope this could work... or maybe not because, I'll be on to my main plans which was in my last blog post, "Chapter 22: The Turning Points 2011".

well.. I guess that's it for "My Randomness!!" for tonight...

on my next blog post... I'll give you a hint, it's still a "My Randomness!!" episode but this time.. I'll be writing about.. "My Choice of Hair Styles".. and after that maybe another continuation of my life stories in the "Chapter" series...

till the next post~! Zackie out!

Chapter 22: The Turning Points 2011

OMG... I just can't believe it. I know.. but it's so "all of a sudden kind of feeling" you know. I just can't believe that my SPM examination is finally OVER... plus.. my school life is also finally OVER, PERIOD. as a reality, I'm so surprised. I don't even know what to say..

and so.. my thoughts on my exam.. how was it? if you ask me.. well, here's a summary of it:

-out of the 10 subjects I take, my prediction is I'll get 8As 2Bs.. or 9As 1B. maybe I'll get Cs somewhere but I thought I did it alright

-the hardest subject for me during SPM was Sejarah and Chemistry.

-honestly, I did not feel any stress at all. I did feel some stress but very little compared to during normal school examinations and much more little stress than during PMR exams 2 years ago.

-because of SPM, I kinda don't have the Christmas feeling... I know it's kinda bad but at least right now I can feel it.. kinda xD

-everytime SPM draws nearer to the end, I thought of my classmates and my friends. I treasured them so much. but time has to move on... it's one of the turning points of our lives and we must be well prepared to face it. though we can still meet. YOU GUYS AND GIRLS ROCK

-I'm gonna miss school.. seriously.. it really suck for me to watch my school slowly goes far away from me when I entered my car and drove home everyday.

so.. that's all of my summary on SPM. and guess what? I'M SO DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oops.. hehe.. sorry, I said that already. I'm just so "excited"... just like a nuclear reaction. anyways... to all my form 5 friends... what are you going to do now???

well, since I'm the one blogging here, I might just as well... tell you my "scenario" or better, my "plan" for the coming season. it's not that much but at least I can let you guys get the better picture of what's to come in my life. but first, let me tell you that, there will be 2 possible life scenarios in my life of 2011 if EVERYTHING goes well. IF all goes well..

1st SCENARIO:

-I'll be going to PLKN first thing. there, I'll get my head shaved like nobody's business. hell, this sucks. ain't no way I'm liking this but what I really hoped for in this program is to get the fitness level I'm aiming for. currently I couldn't stand long badminton singles matches because of the lack of stamina after I stopped training this year.

-when I get back, this is where everybody and I will be taking of SPM results! oh, I'll be seeing you guys and girls again! I'm actually looking forward to this day even right now. I can expect difference in everybody during this time.. maybe a difference in hairstyles.. body structure (as in muscles or.. gettin HAWT xD).. or some will just be the same, like me! haha.

-after getting my results, this is when I decide to take a break for the whole year of 2011. taking a break not as in doing nothing or stay at home like a pig and have fun. but I'm taking life to a whole new level.. that is, to play badminton professionally! get what I mean? not as in become a national player like Lee Chong Wei.. but I want to live at least just a bit of my dreams. so, I'll be focusing on the badminton scene during this time period.. I'm planning to rejoin the AST badminton club but this time to the most elite group, where state players are born. though I will find it hard to fit in because most of them will look down on me, but with my talent and heart to work hard, I'll go far. my actual dream was to be like Lee Chong Wei and Lin Dan.. playing badminton in the international scene has always been my dream and go big by winning tournaments and even.. the Olympic gold. but due to my parents disapprovement on the matter.. at least I get to just live part of it and I thank them so much for it. hope you guys and girls will support me although my chances are quite small. and during this period of time also, I'll be taking driving! I'll finally get a "P" and I can drive around freely.. for awhile.

-2011 passes.. I'll finally hang up my racket, and further my studies in Nirwana College in Kuala Lumpur in the January intake of 2012. I'll be taking up medical and might be going to KURSK in Russia or to India which will take up 5 years of my life time. then, I'll be taking my specialist course for another 3 years in Malaysia itself in Radiology.. where I will inherit my uncle's business in Klinik Kissey. come meet me sometimes if you have problems! or if you're... pregnant.. hehehehe xD

well, that's all of my 1st scenario of my life after SPM.. here's scenario 2

2nd SCENARIO:

-going to PLKN

-take SPM results

-go back to badminton, but this time for only awhile because I'll be preparing to go to Nirwana College in the September intakes.

-I'll finish my studies much more earlier than 1st scenario. and during this period, I'll be taking up driving and get my "P" license. now I can drive you guys around!

well.. that's all for the plans that I may be taking after I'm done with 2010. hope everything goes well. honestly, both plans work well on me but I prefer Scenario 1 better.

WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS? haha.. till the next post.. Zackie out~!

My Randomness!! Ep. 12: When You're Through Thinking, Say Yes

yo yo yo~! all Yellowcard fans! have you heard the news??

YES! you definitely heard it right! YELLOWCARD is BACCCCK! they are going to rock your music stores again on March 2011 with their all-new album "When You're Through Thinking, Say Yes". fans can hear more of Ryan Key who is the lead singer of the band once more! stay tuned.. they are the Only One band who plays their musics with violin :P

My Randomness!! Ep. 11: What the F*ck

SPM is near.. so.. why don't cheer up a little? :)

My Randomness!! Ep. 10: The Number 54

Hey guys! today's episode of My Randomness!! is a short blog post about the number "54".

1st of all.. have you noticed my e-mail address having the number "54" (zack_cena54@yahoo.com/chronicle_zac54@hotmail.com)? I'm sure you all do..

many of you asked me many times before about why do I put the number 54 in my e-mail address. even my favourite number used to be the number itself. I get multiple views about my pick on the number such as:

- that's the actual year he was born(1954)

- his favourite number

- it's his favourite movie (the movie Studio 54)

- that's his age.. he's not a teen, but an old hag

and so.. I get such views like these but now finally I'm going to answer them..

have you ever thought about WWE pro wrestler John Cena a few years back?

YES. he was wearing football jerseys with the number 54 on it. I was a WWE crazed fan back when I was younger (13-15 years old) and my favourite wrestler was John Cena. I was so influenced by his character that I made "54" my favourite number. obviously my yahoo account says so.

anyways, that's it for now.. hope you didn't like this post coz it's totally random ;P

Zack Kissey, out!

My Randomness!! Ep. 9: When You Say I Promise

hello peeps! I'm back again! temporarily only. I haven't took my shower actually since 6pm. hahaha.. what the heck.

anyways, today I'm back with more on My Randomness!! episodes, with today's episode entitled "When You Say I Promise". honestly this has been one of my most favourite topic to discuss about since it has something to do with the lives that we live in.

alright.. so.. about promises.. has anybody in history hold on to their promises? I know a few.. such as God, Jesus Christ, Prophet Muhammad and a few more known peeps. but other than these real honest dudes.. have you ever keep all your promises? I'm sure it'll be a no. well, there are some who never make any promises in his/her life at all. if I ever meet such a person, then.. you're cool. haha.

okay.. before I go any further, let me get clear with the meaning of the word "promise". a promise is a commitment of a person to do or not do something. other than that, it is also known as "oath" or "affirmation".

now that's clear, time to move on. erm.. when does a person make a promise? well, as we all already know, a person makes a promise when he/she is confident that he/she can maintain something or their actions for as long as it takes.. examples like:

- I promise to stop smoking
- I promise to stop taking drugs
- I promise to stop watching porn
- I promise to stop drinking
- I promise to stop being an ASS

hahaha.. yeah, those are some examples.

moving, promises are also often used as a confidence booster. to me, this is one of the positive promises a person can make to improve in many things.. examples include:

- I promise to study hard and score straight in SPM
- I promise to train harder to score gold in sports
- I promise to improve my attitude to become a better person
- I promise to stop being a DUMBASS

......=_="

anyway... other than that, we have the religious promises! one very common promise is that the person swore to reject all evil and will always follow the teachings of their respective religion. just like the time when I received Confirmation in church where I swore to reject all things related to evil.

and finally, the most common of all.. promises to friends. this type of promise, to me, is the most sensitive of all other than religious promises. it is very easy to make the promise, but the hardest when it comes to living up to the promise. you all know what I mean right? sometimes it is good to make that promise with your friends that are very close to you. it makes relationships more interesting and better.. or.. worse. there are times when you make a promise to your friend about anything but you only think about your own good or your friend's good without even considering A LOT OF MANY OTHERS. yes, and I mean it.

well, you should realise that by doing so, it may affect your relationship with others deeply. it may be good, it may be bad. either way, the bottom line is, you'll affect others.. especially the ones you love. you make a promise to your friend, and others close to you listens, your friend feels better and happy, others who are close to you will either be happy, neutral, or feel uneasy. but it's so often that they will not let you know about their uneasiness. that's the problem. if you're lucky, they will tolerate and see how far the promise goes.

usually, the person who feels uneasy but tolerates with it, will see how long will this promise last. he/she is actually hoping for the person who made the promise to change his/her mind. if he/she notices that the person finally change their mind, he/she will acknowledge that the person is being considerate and cares about his/her other friends. but if the person doesn't... then he/she may think that the person never give a thought about him/her but only care about the friend whom the person make promises to. this is where I meant by affecting others deeply. sucks to be anybody in that situation.

I mean.. please, don't make promises that can bring any friend down. even if you don't know what they're thinking or what they feel. my advice is, if you want to make a promise with a close friend, make sure that it involves you and your friend that you promised to ONLY. or better, don't make promises at all!

to whoever reading this.. I'm not saying that promises are bad. but don't let it affect others..

INCLUDING ME! xD

anyhow, thanks for reading.. and do leave comments(if you like)!

SEE YOU IN NEXT POST!

Reach For the Sky

Watch you waste away 
You were born to shine but left behind 
Slowly fade to grey 
Yet, you say you are fine but up here you're up high 

How could you believe that you done wrong 
You don't believe in yourself 

So reach for the sky, 
I would pick you up if I could 
Open your eyes, 
I would pick you up if I could 

Listen to the sound 
Of your days passing by while you live a lie 
Watch you turn around 
Watch you say "Goodbye" while there's no reply 

How could you believe that your not strong 
You don't believe anything 

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/reach-for-the-sky-lyrics-secondhand-serenade.html ]

So reach for the sky, 
I would pick you up if I could 
Open your eyes, 
I would pick you up if I could 

Then I saw your face, you're left alone 
But you're not alone, you're not alone, you're not alone 

Reach for the sky 
I would pick you up if I could, 
Open your eyes, I would pick you up If I could 
You're not alone, 
You're not alone, 
You're not alone, 
You're not alone, 
You're not alone....

August 2010 Part 2: Metaphorically Self-Destructive

I had a good run on the road,

but it was a long road,

but along the road there lay me hanging,

out of sight, I tripped on a rock,

falling to an immediate but short doom.

my hands were strong enough to push myself up,

but have to lay back down,

as these hands got weak of burden and self-hate,

it wasn't supposed to be this way,

but that's what my drama script have to say.

sitting down on the sideway of the road,

I waited for healing, or perhaps a remedy,

hours passes by, nothing,

making insanity hit the very core of my cereblum,

for failure is what makes pressure hurts the most.

knowing the going is tough, instead use my legs,

to stand tall and continue walking, arms crossed,

then comes two diverging roads, none with a sign,

I was to make decision, and decision comes consequences,

for actions are like a role-playing game,

the leading character to live a fate unlike any other,

my situation makes life such a bother,

and so I picked, without the voice of a father or mother.

magnitudes of thunder sounds, lightning strikes, came to my way,

I screamed as loud as I can, hoping to fend it off,

I asked for it, it stroke my hands,

piercing every bit of pieces of my strength and faith,

for it's pain shows how heavy sin can be,

making matters worse, my strong legs share the same fate,

I fell again, this time screaming even louder,

I asked for it.

life was coming to an end, metaphorically

I'm self-destructive, metaphorically

I'm weak and hopeless, metaphorically

an attempt to take myself down, never dreamt of it.

as I said before, it was a good run,

I'm still able to stand up,

I guess this what life really means, metaphorically,

a person goes strong, weak, and strong again, and weak again,

again and again,

"are you willing? are you tired? are you sick?",

I'm masochistic, because it's a part of the drama,

faith runs strong,

feeling of never going wrong,

yet, I'll only ever fall to the deepest,

to become the talk of the empty.

I start to hate myself more, and so I cry,

pulling me back into reality,

alone and giving thoughts,

wondering if my heart can make it through,

I think of others, unfairness, envious, selfishness,

they have the advantage before, they utilized every bit of it,

I was at the receiving end, sad and broken,

but now when I am in their shoes, pride took over,

until I finally realized that I'm no better than them,

perhaps it was an understatement that I'm not understanding,

a weakness most would ever want to avoid.

I become self-destructive,

physically not affected,

yet destroys the very beauty of the my own image,

becomes a shadow, out of interest,

not the desired, be the letdown.